Wednesday, June 13, 2018 at 9:00am
PSA: There are seven days until my TSwift year and I’m so excited.
The wildest thing happened last night and I cried for a good hour before bed. I met such a sweet guy at the bar with the most beautiful eyes. When the night ended, he invited me to come over and everything was going great until… he told me he couldn’t do anything because he actually had a girlfriend and felt so guilty.
I asked if he thought he’d marry her one day and he said yes. I cried in my car before I went home.
I wasn’t sad at all that I couldn’t have him (except maybe a little) I was so sad that 1. I knew my ex had never cared about me enough to do that when we were together and he called while I was drinking and 2. It took 4 years for me to meet a nice guy in this town and he’s someone else’s. I also cried because I felt insanely guilty. While nothing had actually happened, on the chance they do end up married, I’ll always be that secret revenge from the one time she got caught flirting with someone else.
Sadly, he kissed me on my forehead and reassured me I was a beautiful girl. Without shame, I cried and blew my nose in my sleeve right in front of him.
Also kinda sad cause a guy I genuinely cared about as a good friend turned out to be a sack of shit. Surprise.
I had a photo shoot with myself last night. My date fell through cause I went to the bar instead. Surprise?
Until next time,